Hormones SUCK!

I feel like I just want to scream.  I am so moody, and so just..pissed off.  All for absolutely no reason, that I can think of.  I have been this way, off and on, for about the last 2 months.  I know what causes it (obviously, the baby growing in my tummy) but give me a break!  About a month ago, I was crying every single day, and I thought that part had come and gone.  It's super hard to deal with because I was never really hormonal with my first pregnancy.  I am so tired of crying and being mad all of the time. 

I am happy that it isn't really affecting the boys.  Roland normally causes the tears.  Let it be known, it's not because he is in any way saying/doing mean things to me.  He will just say something that would normally just irk me, normal husband/wife stuff, and apparently it's the end of the world to me.  I cried today because he wanted to take his PSP in the car.  Needless to say, the PSP stayed home. 

I also am having some pretty bad appearance issues.  I bought a pair of jean capri's since I have only gained about eight pounds and won't really need pants for this pregnancy.  Well the rain came today, and my capri's just weren't going to cut it.  I had other maternity pants I could have worn, but decided to wear my normal jeans with my Belly Band.  It was just a disaster.  We were already running late for the movie, so I was trying really hard to just be ready to go, but was crying walking out the door because of how unhappy I was with how I looked.  Thankfully, we saw a hilarious movie (Death at a Funeral) and that helped a little.  When we got home, Roland ran me a bubble bath and gave me a foot massage, but I'm still pretty down in the dumps.

Sorry for the pity-party.  I just needed to get out all of my nonsense that is going on in my head.  Hopefully in a couple of days this will all be gone again, and I'll have a few weeks before it returns.  I have a couple of packages coming in the mail in the next couple of days that are going to keep me pretty busy, so that might help a little as well.  I'm going to have a slice of cheesecake..who knows, it could help too.