1 vs. 2

I wonder how life will be different nine months from now.  I mean, I know HOW it will be different.  There will be two children vs. one child.  But what will be the major differences?  The life-changing differences?

I have always heard that going from one to two is harder than going from zero to none.  But how can that be so?  I am feeling MUCH more prepared this time around.  I know what I am in for.  I now know what sleepless nights really are.  I know colic, and acid reflux, and milk allergy.  Gosh, I know thrust, I know ear infections, and bronchitis.  I know how many poops a day are normal and what color said poop should be.  I know what to register for, what I really won't need, and what I want vs. need.  With Kaleb, I think I tried five slings before I got one that I liked.  I now have four useless slings (that I should probably post on Craigslist) and one really awesome sling, that will probably be more useful considering I will be chasing around Kaleb.

I think that the thing that I am most scared of is being an awesome mommy to BabyLove, and totally losing touch with being a mommy to Kaleb.  How do you do it?  How do you function on less than say, five hours of sleep, and still manage to make three meals a day for your toddler?  How do you make sure baby is fine, while toddler wants to play?  How do you let toddler know that he is still very much important?  Deep down, I know I will be fine.  I know Roland will be amazing, and more than anything, I KNOW Kaleb will be the most incredible little big brother any baby could ask for.  He is such a good helper, and already tells me he wants to help with diapers and feeding the baby.  I know he doesn't understand it completely, but just the fact that he wants to do it, shows me what an awesome little man I have.

I know we will get through it.  To be honest, the first twelve months of Kaleb's life were nothing that we expected.  It was a lot, and I mean A LOT, harder than we thought.  We had to deal with things the books told me nothing about.  Now I have experience on my side.  I feel like we are going into this with more knowledge that we can ask for.  This is a lot more comforting than having our first.  I'm sure adjusting to life as a family of four will have it's own hardships, but as for the baby stuff....bring it on!

"While we try to teach our children all about life, our children teach us what life is all about."