11 Days

I thought by the time we got to this point, I'd be nervous.  I thought I would be thinking about it day-in and day-out, and not able to talk about anything other than the fact that in 11 days (really 10, since were less than 3 hours away from Monday), I'm not only having another child, but having major surgery.  So, now I sit here wondering..why am I not nervous??  Well, I am a planner, boy oh boy, am I.  I have had her diaper/hospital bag (note: with several outfits and their coordinating bows) ready for ooooh, two weeks now.  My hospital bag is ready, other than toiletries..but the toiletry bag?  It's sitting on the counter ready to be filled.  Kaleb's overnight stuff for four days and nights has been packed and at my mom's house for at least a month.  I seriously have the best husband ever and I have purchased, with his support, anything that I could have hoped or wished for, so I am left wanting absolutely nothing other than my baby.

So, since were 11 days out, and I'm not nervous...when will I get nervous?  Don't get me wrong.  I don't want that 10 inch long epidural needle anywhere near my spine.  But with a c-section, it's kind of necessary.  I'm definitely not looking forward to being without Kaleb for that long.  I cry lately when he is gone overnight at my mom's, so this should be interesting, to say the least.  Roland and I have both approached this in such a different manner than we did Kaleb's birth, and I am so very excited for the day to actually be here.  It's so nice to know what to expect, and know what you're getting yourself into.

So maybe I'll just relax.  I guess I don't have to be nervous.  I guess I could just sit back and go with the flow, for once in my life.  Maybe I'll just check back when there's about 5 days to go..